So I ran into some major resistance this week with my story. And I kind of knew I was having resistance, and I let myself resist. I’m still not entirely sure if the resistance comes from the fact that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to make this fight scene satisfying, or because I know that once this scene is done, the story is ready for beta readers. It might be a little bit of both.
Truth be told, it might also come from the fact that I don’t know how to finish. This will be the first time that I am going to be able to say to myself that my rough draft is actually done enough that I am letting other people read it and asking them for real, actually feedback. There is no more “oh I’ll add that later”. It needs to all be in there.
Now that’s not to say things won’t change after this. But this will be a first. A first I’m resisting. It’s always funny when people talk about the ‘fear of success’, but it really is a thing.
My mind is even trying to push me on to other stories, having great ideas for things not related to this story, in a wild attempt to distract me from finishing. Even as I’m writing this blog post. This was the time I was supposed to sit down and use for writing but I’m writing this blog post instead. It’s good to get my concerns out, but at a certain point it’s just procrastination. Back to work.
